so you're asking, whats been happening, well i will tell you. Last Thursday in a class at tafe, we got put into our team project groups, so i got put with people who i originally thought were nice, well one of them is, but the other 2, i don't think so, i admit i don't tend to talk a lot at first, and the nice one tried to get me to say something, and i didn't say anything harsh, or what seemed to be harsh at all, but apparently one got offended with the way i said things, not so much what i said; ok so i admit, i can be rather direct, straight to the point and i've learnt that, and some people would take this as abrupt, being the word they used to describe me, so i have been asked to work on that, try and not be so direct. they're asking me to CHANGE who i am!!! if they can't put up with how i am, i'm surely not going to change for them, it's their problem, not mine! and i won't change for anyone, let alone people who don't even like me! i'm not going to go out of my way to be friends with them, cause it seems to me that they're hardly even worth the hassle. So the things that happened, i was given jobs i didn't want, and i tried to tell them that, and i put my foot down cause i HATED being secretary last year, and was trying my hardest to avoid it (even ask my lecturer toni from last year, i was so stubborn) they didn't listen to me on the other things, but i was so stubborn and put my foot down against the secretary. Then later one of them came and asked me to make sure i had one of my 5 tasks done be the next week, so i said i'd try, and then she just kept going on and on about it, and i said i would try, with a bit of sterness in my voice, i did say i would try, and so i had 2 done by the next week, then the same girl said she said to have as many as possible done for the next week, which she did not say at all! i was ready to blow a fuse at that point, but i didn't, thank goodness, i would've been in even more trouble then, so i stated my case, and we continued, the 2 other girls kept doing their tasks, saying we were going to do the constitution together, that didn't happen for at least 20 minutes, so i sat there quietly, then they started the constitution, and all that was really happening was one was reading out something, while the other was typing it, i put up with that for 10 minutes, i had my own tasks to do! so i picked up my sheet that i needed to type and went and did that and started on the next task, then one of the duo came over and told me I WASN'T PULLING MY WEIGHT, that I AM DRAGGING THE TEAM BEHIND, which is a whole pile of beeping beep!!!! She also said i'm not contributing to the team tasks, like the constitution, and she said they wouldn't be putting my name on any of the work my group has done!! so she threatened me!!!! made me so mad. Soon after that my lecturer asked if she could talk to me, and i'm a good student, i know that, and apparently i wasn't in trouble, even though i felt like it, and you all know me, i start crying when i feel pressured, scared, intimidated or sometimes even nervous, and my lecturer asked me if i was alright, which of course i wasn't but i didn't say that, i just assured her i was fine and that this always happens, so she told me that she had some complaints from some of my team, and some other people about how i had been treating one of the duo, i was actually helping one of the duo and she just snaps at me, i was being nice, there was no sarcasm or anything in my voice, and she just snaps at me, for no reason!!! shows me for helping her right? so my lecturer asked why i was sitting on the other side of the room, and i was late, and was talking to a friend, so i just kinda sat on the other side of the room, nothing to do with not wanting to sit near them. My lecturer continued and kept asking if i was ok, cause i wasn't making a sound, but was continously crying, cause i hate being confronted by someone higher than me, it just makes me cry, don't ask me why, it just does, so then she asked me what i was going to do when i went back to class, and i said "sit closer to my team and work on my directness" or something like that, like a good little girl. Then i walked out with tears still streaming down my face and went to the toilet, washed my face and then went outside and sat in an inlet by the door for a while, i got up and walked down the path till i got to the end of the building, and walked back, went back to the toilet, washed my face again, when i notice a friend walking up the hallway, she came to find me, was wondering whether i was ok, i can't remember what i said, but we and walked back into class together, i had just controlled my tears, which does tend to take a while, cause it's normally really overwhelming for me; I packed up my stuff and moved next to the nice person in my team.
So the main problems with my team
- I was threatened
- I'm being bullied
- I'm discluded
- I feel seperated; and
- My lecturer seems to think there's nothing wrong with my team
- I'm going to email my lecturer
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