Leaving Youth

Hey,

I hate to be the bringer of bad news, but i feel i have no other logical choice. This subject has been on my mind for quite some time, more like this choice. Early this term i was so overwhelmed, i wanted to break down and cry, but God got me through that one long night, with coasters, 5-7's & youth, it was so hard on me, so it brings me to the reason of this post, i'm leaving youth (this is the point where everyone celebrates) this is for no other reason but God; i have felt left out & excluded for a long while now, like no one wants me there, so therefore i must make this tragic choice, continue going there, feeling left out & hurt, or leave & just help with 5-7's. I believe i have grown so much & at Livewire i have been hurt & discouraged, but that is not the reason i am leaving, it's the one of many. When i spent that Friday night home last week, i felt burdened with having to go back, but i enjoyed it home, i had fun relaxing after a hectic week with assignments & i've been hanging out to become a leader there, but have been too chicken to ask at fear of being rejected, which would've probably happened anyway, then Andrew left, the one guy that kept me there, so now i feel left out & alone, with nothing keeping me there, so i am leaving. I have been pondering this decision for a long while & have finally made it. To clarify, i will still be helping with the 5-7's, for as long as they want me there, i don't feel useless or alone there, i have jobs i do & am happy doing them. I wish Livewire all the luck & happiness that God could offer them & now i formally bid adeu, have fun without me, which i know you will

with God's many blessings
Amanda