Meeting with Jacqui

i saw jacqui today
lyla & jenny came in too
lyla left when i said i felt intimidated
they said i have definitely failed the course
and am not to come back to the course
but i still have to pay my fees
they said teachers assistant might be a better option
i'm not going for that
maybe eventually
they said that my theory standard has risen
sandwich effect
they said i'm a wonderful person
sandwich effect
they said to keep them updated with how i'm going
not like i will
they said alot of things
half of which i don't remember
i didn't even cry
miracle in itself
they said i was very mature with the whole situation
sandwich effect
then i left
with my questions answered
and tears rolling down my cheek
i wanted to cry
but couldnt