4th November 2007

Hey Everyone

i know i haven't updated in a while, just been so busy with tafe & church & actually having a boyfriend, yet still being ahead in my study (meant to be working on a re-submit, but i'm almost done anyway) so i'm assuming you want to hear how everythings going? well, for those who want that, you get it, but for those who don't well, if you comment, i might address it (yes, please comment)

lets start with church for once

well, church is amazing, i'm so happy there, the past is behind me, growing cobwebs & thats where it will stay, anyway, sunday school is great, i love it there, i've been put in charge of worship, which i am so happy about, how much better could it get? cept the fact that i became a member today! even though i was last, why am i always last! i dont like being last, but who cares anyway, i wasnt on stage today, i had a really sore throat though, so probably wouldnt have sung anyway, and guess what, i'm finally singing on my own, cause of vocal lessons, where i literally have to, i was so nervous as first, totally scared, but i got through it alright & it seems theres a greater level of trust in the worship team now, for us to get past the nerves & sing in front of each other, well, it was a big step for me, for someone who doesnt trust many people on a higher level, it was a big step & i'm proud of myself. and we had 2 baptisms today, was so cool, real glad, it was awesome. we've started a series on haggai, it actually interesting, even though i'm hardly there cause of sunday school, saves me trying to find an outfit i guess, meh, well thats about it for church, overall, pretty awesome at the moment, oh, wait, youth group, we've incorporated grades 5-7 now, on a fortnightly basis & its been cool, had i think 5-10 kids last week, and at the end of term we're doing a progressive dinner for christmas, but the week before that we're doing to the youth group ignition at freeway church, can't wait, i've got friends there, lol & we have HSM every other fortnight, which is, alright, i get some decent reading time in, which is good, but other than that it gets pretty boring at times, cept last time we did a collage type thing, which was alright, better than what we normally do & i liked talking about games & stuff, thinking of joining the games team, but i dont want to announce games, i hate public speaking, i get so nervous, but anyway, thats going alright, so's childrens church & church itself, so it's all pretty good.

tafe - BORING, cept the fact that i'm going on placement next week & still have to get this stupid form filled out, i dont see why i have to, i had one done last semester, she's being such a beep, but rhiannon has left (hallelujah) and laura has left, she wasnt bad though, but one of my lecturers is being such a cow! she flat out insulted me in class! totally uncalled for & i felt like hitting her, but last week, i found out, i don't get a lecturer on my placement, i get this total stranger & i'm meant to trust jacqui about it! what a load of bull s**t! i know i'm meant to be this good little christian girl that everyone expects, well i dont care, i'll express my feelings if i feel like it & this just makes me angry, i cant help that, well, it means i dont get leigh again, which is good, i get this lady called sylvia instead, which i havent even met, in a way i'm looking forward to work experience, but in a way i'm not, i guess i'm scared that it will be like last time, but i've heard so many good things about the center i'm going to, so i'm actually going to a good center, getting excited.

everything else - well, yes, you heard me right, i have a boyfriend, his names sam & he's amazing, he means the world to me, not more than god though, never more than god, home life is still pretty much hell, brothers, dad & everything

well, thats about it, i'm too tired to write anymore, just finished my resubmit, so that will go in tomorrow, bye

With God in control, ANYTHING is possible
God Bless
manda4889